holidays

so, i definitely havent posted in awhile, but thats only because i havent been able to really access a computer and get on here the past few days because i went to go see my grandma and other relatives out in the middle of nowhere. more like in a little town in nebraska. I was there over christmas. you should have seen the "sea of presents" that were by my grandma's little christmas tree. my dad calls it the "christmas stick". There were so many presents that they were running along the wall where my grandma's christmas tree was and along another wall too. It took over an hour to hand them and unwrap them all. I was sweating because of all the people that were there in that one room(about 20 people to be exact). We have a tradition on my mom's side of the family which is the youngest kid(excluding the really little ones) gets to hand out present. It was my turn this year. Well, the tradition is more when most of the family is together the next kid in line gets to hand out presents. That sucked so much. I didnt really like it, but I survived.
I got to see my three little second cousins. One is about 3 and I have seen him before and he sticks to me and I get to "play" with him down in my grandma's basement or wherever we are. The other two I have never seen and the one little girl is about 2 years old and she is SO cute! She got comfortable around me and started having me play with her and carrying her where she wanted to go when she wanted me to carry her. The last one is only about 3 months old and omg, she is SOO adorable!!!!!! She is such a cute and good baby. I'm not the best at holding babies, but she was fine when I was holding her. She likes to be talked to. She got upset because she was hungry and while my aunt(her grandma) was get her formula or whatever it is ready, my aunt was talking to her and that calmed her down.
Omg...the snow!!! Awesome!!! My sister and me were going to make a snowman, but we never did only because my dad had to have his gall bladder out. He's fine and he was already kinda having trouble with pain in his stomach and was going to get it looked at when he got back, but he woke up at 3 a.m. the day after Christmas with really bad pain so my grandma and mom went to the E.R. with him a few hours later. My sis, me, and two of my aunts went later that day while he just went into surgery. That hospital has nice waiting rooms. They had a computer with internet access(even though some stuff is blocked for security purposes) and had a T.V. I played solitaire on the computer because I was bored and was googling things for my two aunts and sis to help with the crossword puzzle they were doing. We started to play sheephead which is a card game and is kinda complicated at first when you are learning, but you get the hang of it the more you play it. Joseph...I will explain it in more detail later and show you how to play.
Well, that was bascially the extent of my Christmas holidays. I just back today so i'm really tired from traveling and whatnot. My bed will feel so good tonight..

exam week

its finally exam week and I've already took two exams. I still have to take three exams, but my big exam is over with which is geometry. I barely have a C in that class and I knew the pressure was on me to pass the exam already and my geometry teacher yesterday didnt help, she was like just pass the exam. In my mind I was thinking, I know I need to, but its not as easy as it sounds. Oh well, I got it over with and I think I did pretty well. The proofs were easier than I thought they were going to be, especially the indirect proof. I don't feel like I did that well on the proofs though. The multiple choice questions were pretty easy except for a few of the questions.
I also have already taken my French exam and I got a 85% on it. I thought I would get an A, but I'm satisified with a B on the exam. Thats pretty good for not studying for it that much.
Tomorrow I have to take Biology and I should be studying for that right now, but instead I'm doing this. On Friday, I have to take my History and English exams. They are probably going to be somewhat hard or at least I'm expecting them to be. On Friday afternoon, I'm leaving to drive to Orlando to fly out of there to Nebraska on Saturday. I really want to go with Katelyn and Chanyang to North Carolina instead. I mean, it will be fun with my relatives, but still, it sounds more fun going to North Carolina. I'm SO excited that I finally got an ipod. Its so pretty! =) I already downloaded songs on it too. I'll probably take it to school with me tomorrow or Friday or both days. I dont know.
Well, I should go study....

exams and other stuff...

so..tomorrow is the beginning of exam week and the week before school gets out for winter break(yay!). I'm suprisingly not freaking out that much and not feeling very stressed. I'm SO happy that we get out early on wednesday, thursday, and friday. Saturday I'm leaving to go see my grandma and see other relatives and I'll get to see snow!! yay!! I have to admit I am excited to go and see relatives because they are fun and I get to see babies!
So..today my family bascially celebrated Christmas in a way only because we are going to be gone over Christmas and my dad is going to be gone all week for business. I got presents that I really like! All my friends can wait till I see them tomorrow to find out what I got. Joseph already knows two things I got....
My family also made homemade sausage(its sooo good!) and I got to drive most of the time while delivering some to friends. Omg..that was lets just say a very interesting and experienced filled trip. I was a little nervous and scared part of the way, but I kept cool,calm, and collected. My parents sometimes think I panic about something if I don't do the particular thing quite correctly and I haven't panicked, its pretty much them that are panicking and getting really nervous when they don't need to be. I haven't made them nervous in awhile. I have to admit, I made my mom a little nervous backing out of a few people's driveways today.
Last night, I went to Akeem's party. That was SO much fun even though Akeem was kinda full of himself. It was kinda like homecoming all over again, but SO much better. I didnt dance that much at his party, but I didnt really care or wanted to that much anyways. I just bascially hung out with my friends that were there.
Well, I better go work on exam reviews and this book report thing for english.

rant

so..i'm probably going to rant once again.
School is still very stressful. I just want the break already. I'm breaking down even though it doesnt seem like it. I'm usually good under stress, but right now I'm not doing so great and it probably has to do something with the cold I have. It really sucks and I hope I'm over it soon, very soon. Its making me crash in the evenings early when I need to be up for at least another 2 hours or so doing homework and studying and studying is very crucial right now. My grades aren't what I want them to be, but better than last nine weeks.
It kinda makes me mad that kids are so pressured to get practically straight A's. I think in a way its kinda stupid. I mean, kids don't always need their later advanced core classes later in life with their careers they want to pursue. I mean, I want to go into theater or something related to that. I don't think I'll need to use pre-calc or algebra 2 stuff for theater especially if I end up becoming an actor(I like both aspects of theater: behind the scenes and on stage). Seriously, how well you do in school grade-wise shouldn't be what determines what college you can go to and what determines what college you will go to(if you even do go to college). That brings me to another point. Teenagers shouldnt be pressured by their parents and teachers and just people in their life to make the decision to go to college. Some kids really don't want to go to college for whatever reason, but are probably still pressured by people in their life to go to college and that kid will probably end up going to college without wanting to. People in your life can decide your future, but thats not right. You should be able to decide your own future. Personally, I do want to go to college anyways without the pressures of people in my life. I do want to learn more about theater to become successful in it and a lot of people don't know I want to go into theater in college probably only because they just dont know me well enough or because they know I'm not taking a Drama class even though I want to. It just doesnt fit into my schedule right now. I was going to try to take it this year, but my parents made me take Driver's Ed which I didn't want to take and because I had to take Driver's Ed, I didn't have any room left in my schedule with my "Francais"(french) class and other elective.
Anyways, I'm done ranting for now. I should go do homework.

tired and stressed

I'm so stressed and tired right now and its all because of school. SO many due dates and quizzes and tests and ahhh......I want the winter break already! I can get over the cold I have, relax, sleep in, and just enjoy not having school for a couple of weeks. My grades are somewhat good right now, but definitely not as great as I want them to be. I just hope my parents don't kill me when they do see my grades.
I have just been in kinda a bad mood even though I don't seem like it so much at school around my friends even though some of them know I am in kinda a bad mood. I just am in one of those moods where i want to cry for no reason and if you're a guy you might not know what that kind of mood feels like. Everything will be better(I hope) once winter break gets here. I'm really glad that my sister is coming home for winter break on Thursday. wow, I just made myself in kinda a worse mood now so I better stop typing now so I don't bring myself to tears. I could rant so much longer, but I won't.

mini mu!

soo..yesterday was mini mu and it was awesome!! I proctored a room full of 5th graders. Actually, there were only 14 kids, but still. It was funny that Joseph was the only guy proctoring in the hall I was in. We all were locked out of our rooms when we first got to the rooms we were supposed to be in. That was interesting.
One of the kids in my room had to go to the bathroom like really bad so I let him go even though you aren't supposed to let a kid go during a test. Well, I thought he was going to be back within a few minutes, but he wasnt. He was gone for like a 20 minutes to a half hour. The girl I was proctoring with and me thought he got sick or something.
The kids I had were pretty good. I was surprised of that actually. Well, we did have two teachers helping to keep the kids under control. We(the girl i was proctoring with and me) were SO bored and I mean bored. We weren't allowed to bring anything with us to do during the test so we bascially just sat there and drew on the board occasionally. During the second test, we had a extra copy of the test so we did some of it and it was SO easy. We had pre-algebra or algebra kids. I forget which. I wasnt too observant of that. I didnt even know any of the kids' names except for one only because one of the teachers said her name.
Mini Mu was just awesome except for being really bored. If I am in MAO next year, I'll definitely do Mini Mu again.

sick

soo...i know i havent posted in awhile, but i've been really busy and overwhelmed and stressed and it really sucks that i got sick. i think mandy is the one who got me sick too. i took a sip of her coffee yesterday morning and throughout the day i started to feel worse by each period. Last night when i started to feel like total crap, i had a sore throat, upset stomach,booming headache, and my nose was a little stuffy. I didnt have a fever, but i felt like i did. I didnt get to school till 3rd period today because i felt so crappy when i woke up this morning.
So, on top of being sick, I am so overwhelmed with trying my hardest to get my grades up and studying for a bunch of tests and quizzes and hating my piles of homework i am getting. I just want the break already so I can see my sister again and be with my family and most of all, relax. Today was such a bad day to feel like crap. First, I had to finish this thing in art today(which i did! yay!). Second, FSU people were at school today in driver's ed and that was fun even though we didnt have enough time for everyone to experience sorta what its like to be a drunk driver. Third, I had to do my last ever WUR (YAY!) and fourth, I had a meeting for Mini Mu for MAO. I am just going "ahhhh!!" inside my mind.
So now chanyang and katelyn are trying to set me up with june which i totally dont like. I hate it when people want to set me up with someone, especially june because i'm always paired up with him. It gets very annoying after awhile, but no people just want to keep irritating me. ahhhh.
well, i should go finish my homework.